lots o', Lots o' On My Mind

My mind is always going with continuous thoughts. It's something I've struggled with because it causes anxiety and it's hard for me to turn off.

Tomorrow I have my last formal observation for the year. I teach 4th grade and twice a year our principal does a formal observation. It's supposed to be for 30 minutes, but my principal always stays for an hour because she says likes my teaching so much that she wants to see it all. It's wonderful to get such great reviews but the pressure is always there for me. Yes, every observation has gone wonderful and successful. Yes, I still get nervous and want to be perfect. This is another fault I have- perfectionism. It's hard trying to always be so even when I know that NO one is and ever will be. We all have our faults, etc. and that's what makes us human.

So, on Etsy there is a "Feedback" part for each seller and buyer. I often look at mine and it is all positive. But then I see that some people haven't responded and I start to worry. I begin to think "This person should have received there order by now. Did they not like it? Was it the wrong size? Did I send it to the right address??" The more I dwell on it, the crazier my ideas become. I need to get over it. So what if they didn't like it? They were kind enough not to be rude and tell me, I guess. Horray for all the other people that loved their hats and left feedback! I looked at other sellers I like and some have sold over 500 items and have only 175 feedback. I guess people just don't leave it and it's not a big deal. So, I need to make it not a big deal, right? I wish I could not dwell on things so much, especially when they are so small compared to the big picture of lie. Do any of you do this?